Peace- God's Plan is Perfect

Baby Kevin will not be coming home today but maybe tomorrow. The eye doctor did not do the eye exam until 5:30 pm so the NICU opted to observe him overnight. How he handles the stress of the eye exam will determine if he is able to come home tomorrow. We should know by 9ish today if we will room in tonight and take him home tomorrow. I am praying hard for him. He has had 2 brady events (An abnormally low heart rate. Bradys are usually associated with apnea in premature infants. During these spells the infant will stop breathing for at least 15 seconds and the heart rate will start to slow) so we'll see how things go.

The eye exam did not show any abnormalities. However, his eyes are not yet fully developed so he'll require another eye exam in 2 weeks. The eye exam is stressful because it requires a series of dilation drops, bright exam light, taping the eyelids back and is overall not pleasant. It is normal for babies to have a negative reaction. While it maybe a common reaction, it is still crucial that he be observed.

The highlight of the my day was that he did really well breastfeeding. He was able to get 2oz and he held it down. He's getting so big and he looks so healthy. The nurses all seem to adore him. One nurse is out now on maternity leave and she's so disappointed that she'll miss seeing him go home.

I was reminded of how blessed we are when I ran into one my former nurses. She didn't even recognize me! She said she only recognized me by my eyes. She took care of me on the day of Baby Kevin's arrival. I felt bad because I didn't remember her but she definitely remembered me. She hugged me tightly several times, could not stop staring at me and got all teary eyed because she was amazed at how well I looked. She commented on how severe my case was and it was a blessing to see me doing so well. I continue to thank God because I know I'll never really comprehend how bad I looked and how blessed I am to be alive.

Seeing her did help put things in perspective. Life is so precious. I had taken for granted my recovery and Baby Kevin's. I am back to my pre-pregnancy weight and generally feeling well. Baby Kevin will be home soon. My family is really blessed and we owe it all to the prayers of our family, friends and even strangers.

God is awesome so I will try not to forget to trust Him. I have found peace in that if I have to wait a few more days to bring Baby Kevin home then so be it. We have come so far...why doubt God now?